Little Kian is not so little anymore.

Dear Kian, last week you turned 10 months old. 10 is such a big number. and it's so close to 12. 

i'm not sad about you growing so fast, i'm amazed, surprised sometimes. but i'm not sad. and i'm not scared either. i love watching you grow. 

you have such an awesome personality. you're calm and content most of the day, but you also know how to let us know when you're not happy about something. when something doesn't go your way you throw your arms up and down but you're also very easily entertained and we can make you forget what you wanted on the first place just by showing you a toy or trying to tickle you. you're so ticklish. under the chin and neck are the best spots to make you laugh.

another thing about your personality that i love is how serious you get sometimes. and you give this look that is so grown up, so mature. and i can imagine you in 20 years giving me that very same look.

i love how curious you are. and i know all babies are curious by nature but i love watching you explore things, touch them, analyze them... i love how you tilt your head to the side or how you turn your head when you're following something or someone with your eyes. 

you're getting into everything these days and it's getting a little hard to keep up with you but i think you understand the meaning of "no". i just can't wait for the day that you stop putting everything you find in your mouth. 

10 months came with new teeth and new moves, you recently started to pull yourself up and dancing to music, you're also crawling with your stomach off the floor (although i loved your army crawl, your clothes don't get so dirty anymore).

this month also came with a big change, you suddenly stopped breastfeeding. and it was pretty clear that you wanted to stop. and you know, it was so easy and natural how it all happened from the beginning that it also had to end like that. 

kian, you're so much work but you're so much fun, and love, and laughs, and cuddles, and smiles, and happiness. 

i love you more every day.