the little baby that came out of me more than a year ago is pretty much all gone... in his place there's a little boy walking around the house, blabbering and making us laugh. at times i catch a glimpse of the little baby that he once was, i watch him sleep and remember the days when he still fit perfectly cradled between my arms. it's amazing to think that he was once inside of me, that my heartbeat was probably his first lullaby.
i get frustrated sometimes because he can be a little too determined (some people would say stubborn) but i still think he's the sweetest little boy in the world. when i ask him for a kiss he leans over and puts his cheek on my lips. or his eyes. or his forehead. he loves cuddles and hugs but he also loves to walk freely and without holding my hand.
the little boy has a sense of humor of his own. the other day he was eating a cracker and paul asked him for a little piece. he would put the cracker right next to paul's mouth and when paul would go to take a bite, he would take it away quickly and start laughing. cracked us up.
during the week i go to work at 6:45 am and paul stays with kian. i'm told they usually wake up around 7, have breakfast, play, take a shower and around 9 paul drops him off at doña fatima's place, she lives across the street from my work, she loves kian, and he loves her so it works out great. around 12 or 1 i pick him up. some days we go to have lunch at paul's restaurant and then he gives us a ride home where we spend the rest of the afternoon playing around. some days we come straight home, go shopping or somewhere else and then at night we go pick up paul from work. kian loves to go out and be with other people. when he's tired he only wants us, but he's usually very friendly. paul is finally doing what he's always wanted, and in the meantime learning more about himself and what he wants to do in the future. i miss having him at home during the day but i'm happy he's happy and doing what he loves.
kian's all time favorite toy is (still) a ball, any ball. he sees a ball and immediately goes to grab it, throw it around, kick it around. makes his dad very proud. those two love each other and that love is probably the sweetest thing i've ever witnessed. makes me fall in love all over again. everyday. like lucy in 50 first dates.
